Long Time Gone

Yes, it has been two years since I have posted anything here. A lot has changed for me in those two years.

I am now single. I won’t go into the gory details here. It will just have to suffice to say that I made some big mistakes and was not very willing to deal with some issues that needed my full, undivided attention.

I am no longer working second shift. Yes, I have made that nasty change and have to get up at 5AM on a daily basis. It’s like I am back on the farm again. I am sure glad someone found caffeine and the FDA didn’t feel the need to ban it. I sure look forward to that coffee to jump start my day.

I am back on the dating scene. I think this may be what I am going to expound on today. Let me back up a moment by saying that I am a fairly shy individual outside of the blogosphere and the net and I lived in very rural Wisconsin for most of my life. I also tried very hard to be straight almost all of my life and while I got along great with the guys that I knew, none of them wanted to date someone who could talk farming and cars like they could. And rural Wisconsin definitely is not a place where there are a lot of “out” lesbians. Let’s just suffice it to say that I don’t have a lot of dating experience.

Those of you who know me, and if you don’t know me personally you can probably tell by my picture, know that I am not very feminine. I don’t look feminine. I don’t act feminine. I don’t sound feminine. But, I am attracted to feminine women. See, this is where I start having trouble. Unless I see the signs on a feminine woman (rainbow garb, flirting with other women, etc), the gaydar just doesn’t work very well on feminine women. Yup, I can spot a dyke from a mile away and so can most people, but trying to pick out the one out of ten women who are gay in the feminine realm it next to impossible unless they make the first move. And, my friends, they just aren’t moving towards me.

I went out to one of the gay friendly establishments here in town with a friend a couple of weeks ago and we played pool for a long time. I was watching the people come and go and saw a greater number of straight people in this bar than gay people. I am not sporty and I don’t want to play softball. I just don’t know where to go to meet people.

So here I sit. Single: Trying to figure out what to do and how to get myself out there to meet more people. I am open to suggestion. . . really.